Secret Love Song

Came across this song which was covered by the Sam Willows but surprisingly I found the original so much better and emotional.

We keep behind close doors

Every time I see you, I die a little more

Stolen moments that we steal as curtains falls

It'll never be enough

Pretty much sums up the emotions these past few weeks and had also brought back a piece of nostalgia from 2014's trip in London, one of the trips closest to my heart. It was when I met and knew Kenny better (and before he got attached), while he was a lot more unguarded. London was a place where I had a lot of mixed emotions, probably brought about by the weather.

These few weeks had been a emotional roller coaster for me, not sure if work had helped or contributed to it further but it had left me super drained. Who says cabin crew dept is so much better?

And perhaps someone pointed out something so true, perhaps I'm so upset/sore because I've lost the battle to someone that seemed less capable than me. Is it just only the competitiveness in me? That can be quite scary too. Life's unfair though

Music Stages

I realised I've been through different music stages of my life.
Upon reflecting, the choices are really varied and each seemed to bring out a different emotion, mood and interest in my life.

1. Oldies: Teresa Teng, Celine Dion & Mariah Carey - this was my dad's influence since he listens to them on a daily basis. My childhood was filled with fiddling with the CD player. And I remembered I watched plenty of Michael Jackson

2. English Pop Culture: In primary school, I don't know if it was the influence of my friends but I simply adored listening to 98.7FM & 91.3FM. I spent my savings getting LIME magazine, Smash Hits so that I could read about bands like S Club 7, Westlife, A1, singers like Gareth Gates, Shakira...etc. And yea, my brain cells were used to memorise lyrics!

3. Mando/Cantopop Tide: This was certainly because of my class and also a certain someone whose ringtone of Jay Chou's "Yuan You Hui" made me fall in love with Jay Chou (I'm still a big fan, but not as big as before). I stopped listening to English radio due to the influx of techno & overly "popped" songs which started turning thrashy. Bands like FIR, SHE, Fahrenheit dominated my cupboard poster space, some of which are still there! My Chinese improved tremendously because I started watching Taiwanese dramas and listening to YES933 :) Mandopop saw me through Secondary School and JC and I started listening to Cantopop too

4. KPOP Wave: Strange that I skipped the phase of JPOP but KPOP rocks and accompanied me through uni. It started with Wedding Dress by Taeyang..Don't ask me how, I don't actually remember but it is STILL my favourite KPOP song! Started watching Korean dramas and learnt Korean, though i totally sucked at the subject :/

5. English Country: Seems like my favourite Kpop artistes aren't actually making much songs and I'm facing a dearth of new Kpop songs to keep my interested. I'm turning to Country!The MV I posted here by Lucy Hale reflects why..It reminds me of travelling on road trips - the one to Adelaide and the later one to Dunedin actually made an impact in my life.. Here's to visiting the outbacks and farmlands again!